My Rock Bottom: When it Started and How I Pulled Myself Back Up

May 6th, 2016 – The day our lives changed.

Okay, so, nobody died or got sick or was rushed to the hospital, so don’t freak out or nothing.

But that day did change things.

However, were it not for the events that occurred in the weeks prior to that day, things might have unfolded differently.

I promise to make this brief…

The day I hit rock bottom

During my annual visit with my OBGYN, I cried. I couldn’t help it. My midwife asked about my home life and my husband and I just let it all out…. again.

I had been crying nearly every day already, but crying in the doctor’s office, butt naked on the exam table, was probably the icing on the cake.

Zoloft.

That’s what she prescribed.

For depression.

I mean, what wife wouldn’t be depressed in my situation, right?

Just so you know, by that point in my life my husband and I lived apart for about two and a half years. He worked in a different state. The kids and I stayed in our home near our friends and family.

But then, I spent 10 great days alone with him to celebrate our 10-year wedding anniversary on a cruise to the Caribbean. It was amazing! Saying goodbye to him when we returned home – not so much.

But on May 6th, that life vanished. My husband came home, for good.

After negative side-effects from taking just one dose of Zoloft, my husband decided enough was enough and that he was going to return home. Aww, my knight in shining armor.

My husband’s decision to come to my aid ended up being the next step forward

We have a plaque hanging in our bedroom that says,

“The best thing to hold on to in life is each other.”

I’m not saying rely on your spouse to make you happy.

No. He alone is not why I’m happier.

I’m saying lean on each other for support and comfort. When my world feels like it’s crashing down, at least I know he’s there for me.

And, of course, God is there for us.

But him coming home didn’t resolve things for me.

What happened next

Our life changed dramatically after that day in May 2016.

Meanwhile, my mental well-being teetered in the balance.

Over the following months, I went through a series of changes that transformed my outlook on life – for the better.

Today, I can confidently say that my life has done a complete 180.

On this blog, I share some of the things I’ve done to help myself get better. I share it in hopes that it could help another mom get better, too.

3 thoughts on “My Rock Bottom: When it Started and How I Pulled Myself Back Up

  1. Great blog always praying for your family. Thank you for sharing your journey it is so nice to know we are not alone in the struggles of life.

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