My Rock Bottom: When it Started and How I Pulled Myself Back Up

May 6th, 2016 – The day our lives changed.

Okay, so, nobody died or got sick or was rushed to the hospital, so don’t freak out or nothing.

But that day did change things.

However, were it not for the events that occurred in the weeks prior to that day, things might have unfolded differently.

I promise to make this brief…

The day I hit rock bottom

During my annual visit with my OBGYN, I cried. I couldn’t help it. My midwife asked about my home life and my husband and I just let it all out…. again.

I had been crying nearly every day already, but crying in the doctor’s office, butt naked on the exam table, was probably the icing on the cake.


That’s what she prescribed.

For depression.

I mean, what wife wouldn’t be depressed in my situation, right?

Just so you know, by that point in my life my husband and I lived apart for about two and a half years. He worked in a different state. The kids and I stayed in our home near our friends and family.

But then, I spent 10 great days alone with him to celebrate our 10-year wedding anniversary on a cruise to the Caribbean. It was amazing! Saying goodbye to him when we returned home – not so much.

But on May 6th, that life vanished. My husband came home, for good.

After negative side-effects from taking just one dose of Zoloft, my husband decided enough was enough and that he was going to return home. Aww, my knight in shining armor.

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“If you don't think your anxiety, depression, sadness and stress impact your physical health, think again. All of these emotions trigger chemical reactions in your body, which can lead to inflammation and a weakened immune system. Learn how to cope, sweet friend. There will always be dark days.” – Kris Carr ~ I learned this the hard way. I wish someone would have warned me. ~ And yet, I wouldn’t change those experiences for an easier life. I think we need to experience those hard, difficult times for a reason. To realize our true worth. To realize that we are strong and we can overcome dark days. ~ #anxiety #stress #depression #sadness #stress #physicalhealth #mentalhealthawareness

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My husband’s decision to come to my aid ended up being the next step forward

We have a plaque hanging in our bedroom that says,

“The best thing to hold on to in life is each other.”

I’m not saying rely on your spouse to make you happy.

No. He alone is not why I’m happier.

I’m saying lean on each other for support and comfort. When my world feels like it’s crashing down, at least I know he’s there for me.

And, of course, God is there for us.

But him coming home didn’t resolve things for me.

What happened next

Our life changed dramatically after that day in May 2016.

Meanwhile, my mental well-being teetered in the balance.

Over the following months, I went through a series of changes that transformed my outlook on life – for the better.

Today, I can confidently say that my life has done a complete 180.

But it’s a rather long story, one that I explain in my upcoming book.

Stay tuned.